It's hard for me to grasp the fact that tomorrow George and I have been married for SIX MONTHS! Sometimes, it's still hard for me to understand the full concept of marriage. And ever since I let God FULLY come into my life and wreck my spirit, grasping being a submissive, loving wife has been EVEN harder when trying to fight off flesh. Don't get me wrong I love being married and I love the lessons that I have been taught, but I never would have imagined that I would have been put in my place how much I have in just this half a year of being married. Just being honest.
I came up in a household where I was raised to be independent and I really didn't have to want for much of anything. From that, to entering in a marriage where I had to understand that this is just GEORGE, BRITTANY and God and remembering that GEORGE IS THE HEAD OF THE HOUSEHOLD!... well it has not been easy. (Don't let social media fool you) Reason being... well, I like to voice my opinion. But after awhile you get tired of being put in your place. See, George being the sweet, loving, kindhearted, understanding, accepting husband he is, hasn't been the one doing ALL the putting... It's been God. I mean George knows when to step in and sit me down and sometimes shut me up, BUT the crazy thing is my conviction from God tends to hit me before he can even open his mouth. And that's the hard part. It's different when a human tells you that you need to chill... or you are dead wrong BUT when God does it it's a feeling like no other.
Now some people might look at this and say "dang she getting a little personal ain't she?" ... And maybe I am... BUT God gave me this blog to be transparent. I'm being real. I am telling you all that marriage, especially when you are trying to do it God's way is hard on the EASIEST day ( as my Pastor would say lol).
Let me continue...
I started to ask God for things to write about I immediately became excited thinking "Oh God give me the words to discuss 6 things I've learned from being married for six months.... blah, blah, blah,...Welp. That didn't happen. Which isn't surprising considering that's what I wanted to write. So, I asked God again to give me what I needed to talk about and He said
" Brittany are you the wife I want you to be?" *blank stare*
"Brittany read Proverbs 31. *goes to read it*.
Okay, OKAY. I get it, God. He knows I want to be a better wife so He sent me to the cruelly intimidating scripture not to further intimidate me but to tell me, so I can tell you, all that this woman is can be us and in some ways might already be us.
Ya'll this scripture wrecked me. I tried not to think about it actually. But when God wants you to talk about something He makes it extremely difficult to walk away from it. Just look at Jonah and that Whale.
He allowed Proverbs 31 to pop up everywhere. Our daily scripture text message from church was Proverbs 31:15-16. Then my friend text me a sermon by Pastor Tony Evans, The Wife's Role in A Home, scripture basis Proverbs 31. It was all over me.
Sometimes in reading the bible we can get caught up in the big words and phrases. It can become very intimidating to live like Christ when we don't understand. So I broke it down. And As I began to break it down I was taken aback because I never thought that I would be discussing this scripture and what it means to me. I thought, I have never been or could be this woman. It wasn't until I started to think about it and study what the writer was truly saying that I began to grasp a further, more relatable understanding.
Proverbs 31:10-31 is the model of a Noble, godly woman. Yes, I want to be this woman. I am sure I'm not the only woman who was to be this woman, either. I look at myself and say I am no where near that. But God tells me, I am. No, I might not make the clothes that me and my husband wear as stated in verse 13 but I make sure I take care of them by washing them, folding or hanging them up. I get up and work everyday as he says in verse 17. Verse 24 speaks of her getting food from the ships and making trades... I go to the grocery store and stock the fridge. These comparisons put this scripture in perspective. Because, even though I am not making clothes and trading and planting crops I am still doing things that are of the same quality. And that's what matters. The reality is I don't have the ability and the know how to do all the things listed in this scripture but what I do have is the sense to find a way to make sure in some way, shape or form I can follow this model.
To be a noble wife... Noble, meaning having or showing fine personal qualities or high moral principles and ideals. No where in that definition did it say SHE MUST BE perfect... or making no mistakes... or never arguing... or never crying... or forget... or miss an alarm... or burn up food. This definition spoke of qualities, morals and ideals. No where in Proverbs 31 verses 10-31 does it say this woman is perfect. No where does it say as soon as you get married you will magically become this AMAZING woman. This is literally instructions that each and every Godly woman should strive to follow daily. To not only better herself BUT also her husband and their household. I realized being intimidated by this scripture is an excuse. I shouldn't use this excuse as a reason to why I won't follow these instructions. I won't limit myself because I am scared I will mess up or that I won't wake up early everyday or have his lunch packed every morning for work. What I will do is strive to be this woman daily. In my thoughts and actions.
My words to you are simple. I am not out to give you advice nor am I experienced enough to do anything of the sort. But, whether you are married, single or dating. STRIVE. Strive daily for these qualities. Strive to have the house cleaned when he gets home from work. Strive everyday to become closer to being a better single so you can eventually be a better wife. Strive to be that woman whose husband is known at your job because you speak so highly of him, not talk down about him. Strive. Don't kick yourself if you mess up. Just try again. Strive, so people will wonder what's so special about you. So they will ask "Who's that Lady?"
Write something about yourself. No need to be fancy, just an overview.