This is my second time writing this.... It got deleted as I was trying to publish it. So I'm going to try this again.
I have been extremely hesitant to write this blog post because I am acknowledging the fact that not only am I doing wrong but now I have to take the necessary steps to change my wrongdoings.(James 4:17) Also, because I never want to come off as judgmental, but I know that some people will look at conviction through this post as if I am pointing and wagging a finger at them.
Let me just start by saying this.. As a Christian I know I possess a certain light that may glow at times and sometimes it may not even flicker. It may dim around some people and blind others. It may shine for Christ sometimes and shine for this world during other times. If you are a believer, you too, possess this light. Hopefully you don't struggle like I do with choosing to shine for Jesus or this world.
My struggles come from a place of wanting to be relevant. Wanting to be cool. Wanting to live in a world where I can love and show Jesus when I want too, but still be able to do all the things that allow me to remain likeable. And likeability and Jesus don't even belong in a sentence together.
2Corinthians 6:3 says, We live in such a way that no one will stumble because of us, and no one will find fault in our ministry.
I cringe at the thought that my small mindedness or my yearning for popularity has caused someone to stumble. I hate the fact that in my needing to turn up or pop off someone has seen me and questioned my authenticity in Christ.
Don't get me wrong I am well aware that you and I aren't the only view of Christianity. But I am even more aware of the fact that in the times of storms and difficult situations any small thing can turn a person's beliefs. Why allow yourself to be that small thing?
I am not saying that you do the same stuff I do. I am sure you don't struggle with gossiping, cursing, judging or sometimes being one way on social media and another way in person. I am definitely guilty of these things. I slip.. often. I work hard at my ability to be remain relevant in the worlds eyes but never really as hard at making God smile. Would that be considered a hypocrite? Yep. So am I call myself one? Yep. Am I proud? Absolutely NOT. And I am not bragging AT ALL but I am acknowledging this because I want anyone else who may be stuck between this rock in a hard place to know that we have to change.
If conviction is on you in anyway... WE have to change.
If you know you might be the reason someone else has reverted back to not being completely in love with Jesus... WE have to change.
And that's just the reality of the situation.
I no longer want to flicker. I want to beam, BUT only for Jesus!
I no longer want to be that person that has to sin to remain relevant or cool.
I am done with trying to be in "the know".
I dare not judge anyone and their actions or convictions or ANYTHING at all for that matter, but I want to be a true friend and just say if in anyway you feel any conviction at all... Check yourself. Maybe like me, God is trying to tell you something.
I want to be that light that people need to see and no longer be puzzled negatively but wonder how they can get some of the light I have.
And I want you to be that light too.
Let's Shine bright!
*Galatians 6:9- Let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we will reap if we don't grow weary.*
this little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine...*logs off singing*
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