PRAY-tice Makes Perfect
(peak into my WAR ROOM}
Forgive me for the delay in posting this blog. I have been wrestling back and forth in my mind as to what God really wanted me to post. Well, actually wrestling with what I wanted to post and knowing what God wanted me to post. I wanted to talk about various things. So I procrastinated thinking that God would give me the okay to post one of those topics. Nope. He made it very clear that I needed to write about what He wanted.
As a child, my parents taught me and my brother how to say grace and say our prayers. I'm sure your parents or grandparents or someone you grew up around probably taught you the same thing. I remember memorizing those prayers and rushing through them as I sat down to eat or as I was getting in the bed. Since it became such a routine to say them at certain times of the day it was only natural that as I got older I would remember those prayers and continue to recite them at those specific times of the day. I would add a little extra flavor to them but not really anything drastic. I never saw a problem with that for a long time. It wasn't until recently that I realized my prayers need to GROW UP.
Now don't get me wrong and don't think I am judging anyone who says "God is great, God is good..." because I am not. Any prayer, to God, in reverence, is better than no prayer.
A few months ago I was listening to a sermon fromPastor Tony Evans. He was talking about prayer. In the sermon he said something that has weighed heavy on me ever since that day. He said "when you really want something from God... like when you really want him to show up and move big in your life you can't just say "grace" and think that that's enough for God to come through... you have to REALLY pray".
I sat in awe thinking about what he said for a few hours... Really pray....
It was so powerful to me. In my opinion when he said "grace" I don't think he meant the actual grace that you might say before you eat a meal. I think he was speaking of a little quick prayer that you might mumble before you go into work. Or the prayer you say when you run that stop light and hope that no police saw you and that no one was coming. Or those prayers that you pray everyday and you don't even realize you are repeating the same exact things over and over.
I am extremely guilty of these prayers. My "go-to" prayers.
I never really saw that I was doing anything "wrong" until he made that statement. But it hit hard. How could I really be expecting God to work out something that was so big in my life or come through for me when I can't go talk to him for longer than thirty seconds?
After hearing Pastor Evans say that it gave me two emotions instantly. Excitement and Discouragement.
Excitement, because I was ready to go and pray so hard and intensely that God would hear me loud and clear. Discouragement, because I quickly realized that I didn't know how to pray like that... How to Pray Intensely. But I did not let my discouragement hold me back. I prayed to the best of my ability. I prayed when I had quiet time with Jesus. I prayed through journaling. I prayed in the shower. I prayed whenever I thought about praying. But even though I was praying a lot more I found myself repeating things... being very redundant. After that realization discouragement set in. I kind of gave up. I felt silly. I felt like God was looking at me like "Brittany, you prayed about that this morning". I mean I know that God is not like man so that wasn't the case BUT I couldn't help how I felt.
Well just like God always seems to do... He worked it out. Did I doubt that he would? Slightly. Only because I felt like I needed to handle it... I mean... I just didn't feel right asking God to teach me how to pray... to Him. ( I know it sounds silly, but that's how my mind works) But I didn't even have to ask Him about it. He knew the desires of my heart. He knew I wanted to learn how to truly pray. He allowed the movie, War Room to come out right on time. He knew what I needed. He did that for me. :)
War Room was what I needed to get my jump start on exactly how to approach God about what's going on with me. I already had the logistics of prayer down... I just needed help approaching God. I needed help not feeling like I was silly or my prayers were not "passionate" enough. The movie allowed me to see that I was complicating it. I was making it so much more than it really was. I learned to just come to God as I am. Reverencing Him.... but just as I am. I saw that the only thing I needed to do was do it... I just needed to pray. The only way I would get better at coming to him was by coming to him. ALL the time. Everyday. NO exceptions. Invite him to spend the say with me. Never leave him out of anything.
I realized that the more I did it the easier it got to sit before His feet and acknowledge him and talk to him like I am speaking to you all. I can go to my " war room" ( a corner lol) and dwell in his presence with no hesitation.
I encourage you to find time to sit before His feet and talk to him. When you are on social media for fifteen minutes... put the phone down and talk to Him. I promise the more you do it, the more comfortable you feel doing it. Just like sitting down at a piano for the first time and having no clue how to play "Chop Sticks" but as you practice everyday you get more and more comfortable with it. Take up that habit with communicating with our God. The more you do it the more your heart will yearn to do it. Try it! You'll like it!
9/19/2015 08:41:55 pm
I needed this! Keep doing what you are doing! God bless you!
9/19/2015 08:43:17 pm
Amen! Thanks sis!
9/19/2015 09:20:48 pm
I love this! This was awesome! I'm working on this also.
9/19/2015 09:23:56 pm
Love it, I've been really seeking God through prayer and it does seem difficult at first cause were not sure how to start and what to say, but like you described I pray in conversation with God. He probably look at me like Shani, really lol. It is becoming easier and more so than anything my prayers are becoming less selfish as in the sense of me asking God to do something, but now I find my self in a place of praying a prayer of pure thanksgiving and that is a wonderful feeling. Again Brit, love the blog and I am more in love with the fact that I have someone like you in my peer group who is making such a bold step to glorify God the way he desires us all to do. God is real and I want to strive to live better than what I was doing before. I'm going to pray your strength and you pray mine, cause with this walk comes judgement and distractions, but I am proud of you and I love you and I am super uber about where God is taking us.
9/19/2015 09:29:42 pm
God is so good Shani! I'm glad he placed this topic on my heart! Thank you for your continuous encouragement and warm spirit! I just love you! God isn't through with us that's for sure!
9/19/2015 09:30:03 pm
Amen!!! Keep pushing boo!
9/19/2015 09:38:09 pm
Awesome Britt. Thank you so much for a very mature post!
9/20/2015 06:43:31 am
Awesome. Practice makes perfect. Great post, bubba
9/21/2015 07:35:15 pm
Awesome. I'm so proud of you. I see growth more and more each day.
9/21/2015 08:43:07 pm
Thanks sis! God is great
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