I started Until Nothing's Left two years ago today. At first I was very consistent. I would put out a post or 2 every month, but as my faith wavered so did my consistency. As depression and anxiety overwhelmed my life I began to think that my words meant nothing and that I was better off just leaving it be. It's funny though, even in the midst of these negative thoughts I would always have thoughts about certain blogs. I would think about how I needed to write or how I needed talk about how God brought me through this situation and that situation. Some way or another I would talk myself back down and just forget about it. In all honesty I just felt like I was not making a difference so what's the point. Well God has a funny way of showing you "the point". He did it for me when I wasn't even asking him to.
I was literally wrestling with the thoughts of completely shutting my blog down or just throwing anything out there to say I wrote something. For me to throw anything out there would have been out of character because every post before had been done with such diligence. Considering how much I have gone through in the last year and knowing I have so much to share it wouldn't have been fair to the people who took time to read because it wouldn't have been from the heart. So then I was like "God seriously you know how I'm feeling right now... you know I am just blah. Why do you keep putting it on my heart to write? Everybody blogs nowadays what difference is my blog really going to make?" The first thing God showed me was a Instagram post that pretty much said "everybody is blogging and vlogging and writing books and doing this and that BUT nobody is YOU and nobody has your vision". I was instantly convicted and encouraged. Then to add to that one of my friends wrote under one of my Facebook post asking about when I was putting out a new blog post. That's when God whispered in my ear and said "Brittany even if it's just ONE person who is encouraged by your writing you have fulfilled my purpose."
See it's really hard nowadays to be content with just a few people commenting on your status or sharing your post (when you use social media as a platform to promote your purpose) when you scroll down your timeline and see others post things getting hundreds of comments and re shares. It can be very discouraging. But if that's where your mind immediately goes when you post something then your purpose for posting is jacked up. AND MY PURPOSE WAS JACKED UP! Popularity is not the goal. Fulfilling God's Purpose in you is the goal. Your ministries growth is not contingent on who shares your post it's contingent on your obedience. Growth doesn't come through stagnation.
So Brittany why did you title your post "newness" because you haven't said anything regarding being new.
But I have.
You can't go from wanting to be popular to wanting to fulfill God's purpose with the same mindset. Something has to change. You have to be renewed. Your goals. Your heart. Your mind.
I remember Musiq Soulchild made a song called "Newness" on his Juslisen album. He was talking about new love. Learning and loving somebody after you have loved before and have given your heart before. Like starting over. Well that's what I thought of when I started writing this blog.
There is a "newness" in freeing yourself from the expectations of finding popularity and simply living our purpose. There is "newness" in coming out of a dark place back into God's light. Find the "newness" in learning how to allow yourself to be transparent again for the sake of others.
We are not all meant to write blogs or books or be fitness gurus BUT if you know that God gave you a purpose to do those things or maybe something else and you see that He might have called some others to do the same things, don't let it change how you approach your task. Find hope in knowing that ONE person is depending on you and what you have to give. And if it's more than one that's even better.
Somebody may read my blog and read 15 other blogs in that same day BUT I could say one thing that puts something in perspective for them that those other blogs didn't do. I can talk about one experience that allows them to relate and know that they aren't alone.
In Musiq's song he says "Everything is cool when love is all brand new
'Cause you're learning me and I'm learning you. Its cool when love is all brand new
'Cause you're learning me and I'm learning you." Although he is talking about personal love look at it like this: You re- learn to embrace and love God's purpose for you so you can express that love to a certain person... that person... whoever it may be that's affected by what you have to offer. Treat the newness of your purpose delicately like you would new love. Show it attention. Be consistent and transparent. Allow yourself to mess up but not completely fall off the wagon.
Even though you know how to love this is new love so give it time to develop. I know You are starting over but try to be a little more open. Allow God to be the reason you do this. Let Him be at the forefront. Let Him lead and guide you. Let Him sustain you. Let Him be the reason you set out to fulfill this purpose again. Let Him make you new!
Purpose over Popularity.
“Instead, let the Spirit renew your thoughts and attitudes.” Ephesians 4:23 NLT
“Create in me a clean heart, O God. Renew a loyal spirit within me.” Psalms 51:10 NLT
“He renews my strength. He guides me along right paths, bringing honor to his name.” Psalms 23:3 NLT
“Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and make me willing to obey you.” Psalms 51:12 NLT
“and if you are pure and live with integrity, he will surely rise up and restore your happy home.” Job 8:6 NLT
“When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer.” Psalms 94:19 NLT
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